I have a really complicated question, to which I need a really uncomplicated answer. I feel alone. And I don't know what to do. I live my life around books, and TV shows and on my writing, but in between those ways of escapement, I still fell alone. I'm really an emphatic person so my normal emotions are heightened 100 times more. And I don't know what to do. How to let go. I'm afraid if I let go I will stop feeling at all. What should I do? Please help.
Let me start off by saying that it’s great that you have an interest in books, writing, and TV! Your mindfulness of your emotional sensitivity is also a remarkable trait; people in our age group don’t always have such self-awareness. I’m sorry that you feel alone; I hope you know that you are absolutely wonderful, and that anyone would be blessed to have a glimpse into your beautiful mind! You should also know that the way you feel is common among young people, even those who have many friends. With that said, if you are looking for new friends, your current interests are a great place to start. If you are in high school, your school may have clubs for people who like writing and reading. Your local library may have opportunities like this as well. This can be a great way to meet people you already have something in common with! Your interests are mainly solo activities, and it’s important to make sure you are making them social. I don't want you to think you need to dull your feelings in order to feel understood. It seems like you think that your fragility is putting a barrier between yourself and others, which contributes to your feeling alone. It could be worth it to determine the root of your fragility; it could be fear of judgment or criticism, or perhaps you feel that you are on a different level of maturity than your peers. It is important to remember that everyone is on a journey, including you! So please don't feel set back by this intense feeling. I hope that you have a support system, whether it is your family or a guidance counselor at school; it can never hurt to share your feelings with an adult you trust. In summary, I strongly advise you to seek out a support system in your family or a school counselor, to participate in social activities pertaining to your interests, and to engage with your peers. I hope that more social interaction brings you some of the fulfillment you are looking for, I wish you all the best!